Post #2 Good bye grandpa :(

       "So this is goodbye, I cant cry…I cant look down at your face and cry, because,I know if the tears spill over my cheeks this time they are never going to stop. Kneeling before you, praying to god that you are okay is one of the hardest goodbyes i have ever dealt with, I know that your away from the pain, I know that your happy now, I know that nothing can hurt you now,but I also know that I will never see you on this earth ever again. I will never get a chance to say goodbye and I will never get a chance not to cry." I remember the day when the darkness began in my life. It was a Saturday night when my mom answered the phone at 9:39 pm. I remember the time when the tragedy began. My mom started to cry and scream. At that moment I was really confused...I didn't know what was wrong, I started to hug her and tried to ask her what happened. I heard the echo of my aunts voice coming through the phone. I thought: what's wrong? Did someone die or do they have some type of disease? Why won't anyone tell me what's wrong?! I heard the most pain full thing I could ever imagine. My grandfather...The best person in the whole world is dying from a strange disease. He was hospitalized because he could die any moment. I felt a deep whole in my chest and everything around me was turning black. I started to cry. The only thing that was on my mind was the image of my grandfather with a big smile on his face and saying "I love you so much Cucurucha" which is how he always welcomed me when I visited him in Colombia.
        My mom and I started to hug each other and pray for the health of my grandpa. Right at that moment she said " Agatha, I think I am going to colombia to help my dad" at first I thought she was going to take me with her, but then I realized she wasn't. "Mom can i go with you?" I asked In a tender voice. "Please, I want to see him" but when I saw my mom's face, I knew she didn't want me to see her depressed and to see my grandpa dying. "Sweetie you know that you have school and i don't want you to suffer." I was really mad at the response she gave me, how couldn't she take me to see my own grandfather? Does she not think about how I feel? She saw how my expression changed from sadness to anger. " Are you kidding? He is my grandfather! The only one i have! Mom, please, I love him...And I want to say goodbye to him" I felt bad about how i screamed at her later. She started to cry and she hugged me. "I just don't want you to remember how your grandfather is dying" She said with a sad voice. I was just about to open my mouth and start arguing with her about my feelings, but she looked at me with her sad eyes. "Please let me finish" I nodded in agreement. "I just want you to remember your grandpa with his beautiful smile and telling you how much he loves you..The last thing I want to see is you suffer...That would break my heart". I knew the only thing I could do was wait, and be there for my mom. Time went by, and I finally found out what was going on. My aunt called and told me that my grandfather died at 12:00pm and that my mother saw him die. I felt like my world had just shattered into a thousand pieces. Looking back, deep down I realize that it was best let him go...And I know he will always be with me.