Post #15 Bye :(

As I look back on all that’s happened growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me—there were times when we dreamed together. When we laughed and cried together, as I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you’ll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant each other and for whatever the future may hold” Bloggers today is the last time I am posting in this blog, I am sure you are going to miss me ( I wish) but no worries I would be posting every time when I am going to feel depressed or angry or happy. I am going to miss you so much, you don’t know how, I know that I have only three followers and that you are on my school but is not the same thing. So pliss if you have any questions about teenage problems or you want some advice about something, remember I am here, but most of the time I am sleeping or studying. Oh and I almost forgot happy Valentine’s Day and don’t worry if you are “for ever alone” because you are not and Valentine’s Day is to say thanks to your friends and people that you love. So this is a goodbye, I am going to miss you so much pliss remember me and blog in some of my post. Bye bye bloggers L(This is so sad)

Post #14 No trophy :(

“Science is nothing but trained and organized common sense differing from the latter only as a veteran may differ from a raw recruit; and its methods differ from those of common sense only as far as the guardsman’s cut and thrust differ from the manner in which a savage wield his club” by Thomas Henry Huxley. Hey bloggers today I am going to talk about my science fair, since I was in eighth grade were  I began to do the science fair were you look for some theme that includes investigation. Well you might think that is really easy and it is a piece of cake, but no is not. Well back to the beginning in eighth grade I remember that my investigation was something about medicine but I don’t remember what the theme… was well this year I had to do another science fair, were I put a lot of effort and time to do a great project. My partner and I worked a lot and we putted a lot of effort on this project but, today… the school was giving the students trophies but we didn’t get any L (IS not fair) Even though we are going to regional’s, but my friend and I wanted a trophy. You know what is to work all the time I am project thinking about a trophy and you don’t get any… that’s really sad.  But life is like that… so that all for today and I would talk to you guys later… See you my friends J

Post #13 Love -.-

Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could by Barbara de Angelis. Sometime I ask myself if someday I would be in love. Sure I have to say that I don’t believe in prince charming and happy endings. I just want to know how it is feels to be in love with someone and be with that special person. Some of my friends tell me that I am lucky because I had never had experience that sensation of being in love with someone special because no one had broke my heart yet. Even though people talk about how love sucks and why it exists, I just want to know how it feels to be with that person. So bloggers if you haven’t experience being in love, like me don’t be embarrassed because you are not the only one. There are a lot of people like us; uh and I almost forgot I always look for some quotes and I found the perfect one that express what I am trying to tell you. When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to her; whether the light which surrounds her like a halo comes from you, from her, or from the meeting of your sparks by Natalie Clifford Barney. See you later my friends J

Post # 12 Miss you :)

Remember me when I am gone away. Gone far away into the silent land, when you can no more hold me by the hand. Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay. Remember me when no more day by day. You tell me of our future that you planned. Only remember me; you understand it will be late to counsel then or pray. Yet if you should forget me for a while; and afterwards remember, do not grieve; for if the darkness and corruption leave a vestige of the thoughts that once I had. Better by far you should forget and smile than you should remember and be sad- by Chritina Rossetty. Yesterday my uncle died by a heart attack, he was only forty three years old with two daughters and wife. It’s really sad to see how your family is falling apart and how the people that you love are dying.  Well today I am going to talk about my feelings and how much I miss my family. Since my grandfather died nothing is the same, my family is all falling apart and we almost don’t see each other. Now that my uncle died is really sad how my aunt is suffering and my two cousins. I feel that everyone I love is dying like my grandfather, my uncle and my two cousins, is really hard seeing how everything is falling apart. But I know that God is with my family and he know what he is doing. 

Post #11 I am so upset with my self

Hey blogger; today it was not one of my best days… first I had a really bad grade on my English test. Because I didn’t study a lot and I thought it was going to be really easy but it wasn’t. Sure I knew that it was going to happen because I dint study a lot, I have to admit that I was really lazy and that’s why I was really upset with myself today. So I cried in school because I was so upset with myself ¿How I even didn’t read the book?  My teacher even discussed the story in class and I even put attention so I have no excuse. But for next time I am going to study hard, but I have to be more strong and not being lazy. Also I was mad today because I am in a lot of things like extracurricular class out of school and clubs right now and I am almost all the time in the hospital for my treatments, so I almost don’t have time for myself but whatever I don’t care, I just want to have fun and to be grateful with God.  Oh I almost forgot I saw this quote and I want to share it with you guys. “To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson, So blogger just think about that God gave us just one opportunity to be in this world to be faithful and happy.  See you later my brothers and sisters. 

Post #10 I don't know what to do

“The goal you set must be challenging. At the same time, it should be realistic and attainable, not impossible to reach. It should be challenging enough to make you stretch, but not so far that you break” by Rick Hansen. Hey bloggers today I am going to talk about how scared I am about the future. Well, since I was little I always wanted to be someone successful and to work really hard so I could give everything to my parents, but now that I am so near being in college I have a lot of things in mind. Well lest start at the beginning… one of my goals in life is to join the air force and to help others like going to Africa or Nicaragua to help families that suffers from hunger. But another goal that I used to want was to study medicine and to be a sergeant but that is one the goal that it’s scared me. Because sometimes I hear a lot of doctors that tells everyone that being a student of medicine is really difficult and stressful. And that sometimes some of those students give up and they study something else. Sure I know that no one is the same as you but there is a percent that you would be like those students. In other words I don’t know what to study and I am so lost. So bloggers if you want to help me with this problem just go to your computer and type about if you have some concerns about the future or something related with this post. SEE YOU Later my friends J

Post #9 Bad Day :(

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us be thankful; by Buddha. Hello bloggers, today I am going to talk about my awful day. First yesterday I was telling you all, that I had a math test were I thought I was going to fail but thank God I didn’t, but even though I feel that I didn’t brought my best on that test.  Well also today one of my “friends” treated me like shit (sorry for that word) I even didn’t know what I did wrong, this things always happen and this is not the first time that she treated me like that. I even was going to ask her what I did wrong but I knew what she was going to say. So you know what I did… I ignore her because I am not going to lose my pressures time with her awful attitude. Another thing that happens was that frequently sometimes I feel invisible and that if I am not there anyone would care. But whatever I am just going to be happy because I am alive, I have a family, school, friends and I have a future to catch up. So bloggers if you have bad days just think about that you are not the only one…I had an awful day :( between I almost forgot the guy that I like thinks that I am a stalker and pretty weird. THAT’S NOT TRUE I AM NOT A STALKER! Well nice blogging with you guys… and remember you can comment in my wall if you want (please comment)…. see you tomorrow my friends Bye btw I almost forgot chemistry test tomorrow….. Agh please pray for me :) 

Post#8 So tired -.-

    I am so tired of having too much homework and tired of not having a social life. Sure everyone tells me this is the beginning, because when you are in university things would be tougher.  But thank God I am still in high school even though I want to graduate and get out of school. Because I want to explore the world and I also want to meet new people. Well… back to the stress of school last week was the science fair, were three judges see your work and they ask about your project and blah blah blah. That is super stressful and now this week I have 5 or 6 tests “THAT IS AWFULL” how I am going to have 5 or 6 test? Like tomorrow I have to take the test of Algebra 2 “I am going to die tomorrow” I don’t even understand what the chapter of the test is. “I am so screwed” I love my algebra teacher and she knows that, but I hate the class so much you don’t even know how.  ¿What algebra is going to do in our daily lives? Are we going to see X’s, Y’s and to look for the intercept or graph the polynomial in our lives? ¡No way José!  I am tired of Algebra; having too much homework having no time for myself “I am so tired”.  I really think I need some sleep; well nice blogging with you guys and remember if you are tiered of doing homework and studying, just think about that if you want to be someone in the future you have to work a lot. BYES see you later my Friends J  

Post #7 Carpe Diem

In my life there have been many ups and downs. Nothing seemed to be right, 

nothing was going well. Through my eyes everything was a disaster. It seemed like the end of the road, no solution but to give up and continue carrying the pain. This society considers me an outcast, just by the way I act, and by the way I simply dress. There doesn’t seem to be anything “normal” through their eyes. Seems like such a simplistic way, to follow their “protocol”, but I stand tall and against every word they say. I am who I am and I am an original, I will never die as a copy. Yes it hurts when those people treat you like you are nothing but a corpse without any type of feeling, but you soon realize that they aren’t worth your time, you are way better than any of them. Yes, all of this is true. If you could only imagine how hard it is to every day think to those times we’re life just seemed to be nothing, but a waste of time. No one can imagine what I’ve gone through my whole entire life. But I pick myself up and stay clear that I am happy with who I am, and there is many people who love me for who I am and that will never let me down. First being my family and then my friends. Yeah, sure the family is a great source of moral support but without any friend it’s a “lonely life” since they are the ones who you see every day and share most of these teenage years. In all, my life has found that source of light at the end of the tunnel, bringing back the happy and good way of living. Life may be complicated, but never give up. There is still a lot to learn and find out. Just live life at its fullest and try your best.

Post #6: Fake friends

 I'm always good to my friends...I would never think of harming them! It’s so hard to believe that the girls who I used to call my friends would do what they did. To try and ruin my reputation, and kick me out of the school was just wrong. I am disgusted at the existence of such repugnant lifeless people, who would try to harm others for no reason. Maybe they did it to gain popularity, or just to harm me, but either way all they gained was the rejection from the rest of the class; because everyone knows what they did, and they know that they lied. These girls who I used to call "friends" framed me. They said I had done something I did not do. I don't want to be too specific as to what they did, but I can assure you it hurt me very much. I felt betrayed, and lonely. Why would they do such a thing, if I have always been good to them? Envy is a powerful thing, but luckily it only destroys the person feeling it. What hurt me the most was that instead of talking to me about the situation before jumping to conclusions, they accused me of something I didn’t do. They didn’t care about the consequences, and they didn’t care about me. They lost a sister and a friend. Since the moment this happened I am a better friend than I was before, because I know how much it hurts. I know that in god’s eyes it is a horrible sin, and that the right thing to do is forgive them and be the best friend I can be. Even though I went through a tough time, I have to thank them. I have to thank them because It made me stronger, and because now I have the best friends I could ever ask for, and most of all, because I know how to choose them. 

Post #5 I love you God

"The very strength that protects the heart from injury is the strength that prevents the heart from enlarging to its intended greatness within. The song of the voice is sweet, but the song of the heart is the pure voice of heaven." Kahlil Gibran. You might think that everything I post on this blog is really sad or sometimes boring. But here… is where I express everything I feel and things that I had never told anyone. Yesterday I found out that my grandmother is really sick because her Alzheimer is really bad. So my mom and I would be going to Colombia if things don’t get better so we could help out and be with granny. Also I am really sad and mad at the same time because I feel like I am losing all the people that I love. First my grandfather died from strange dieses, second my grandmother haves Alzheimer and she even don’t know who I am and even her own name. Third my best friend tried to suicide himself because he didn’t want to live in this world but I was there for him…and I help him to get through because God only gave us one opportunity to live in this world full of surprises.  I know that he had given me those entire tasks to be a stronger person and to believe in myself.  To all of those who had problems with their families and friends, you are not the only one, Just believe in god and believe in yourself. I LOVE YOU GOD!

Post #4 Away

The family.  We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.  ~Erma Bombeck; Being away from your family is not the easiest thing that someone can manage. I had lived in Puerto Rico my entire life, since I was born, but my parents are not from here. My mother is from Colombia and my dad from Peru but he thinks he is more American than Peruvian, Well… my parents came here to look for jobs, so they could help their family (I didn’t exist in that moment) my mom came to Puerto Rico when she was eighteen years old, all alone with no friends and no family, she became studying in culinary school and there is where she met my father he was 17 in that moment. At first they didn’t like each other but, I don’t know love… is complicated. So they got married and they had me (The love of their lives).  I had lived away from my cousins, aunts, uncles and grandparents.  Sometimes I feel really sad when I see how my friends talk about their family and how they know each other. But in reality I had never knew too much my family, sure… I had been with them on vacations and in other opportunities but is not the same thing been with them all the time and if you need something they would be there.  But even though they are not with me, I know that they love the way I love them. J

Post #3: I hate having Arthritis

"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather is, always bring your own sunshine." By Anthony J. D'Angelo. Sometimes I ask god "why do I have Arthritis? is this going to bring anything productive into my life? No! I hate having Arthritis! I suffer all the time when I have to take my medicines to control and prevent the cartilage inflammation. I am too young to have that. How is it possible that sixteen year old teenager has to think first about the consequences on things like exercizing or doing whatever a teenager normaly does. Why I can’t be normal? With no pain, no swelling, stiffness, and limited movement. Sure, I have to admit that having Arthritis is not a big thing comparing it with other dieses, but I am sick of taking medicines all the freaking time and missing school just because I have to go to the doctor and see how I am feeling with the medicine. I DON’T LIKE AT ALL! I just want to have good health, and not to look at my hands and see what arthritis is doing to me. I remember when I asked the doctor “When can I stop taking the medicines?”  and she looked me with creepy eyes “YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT FOR EVER”  when the doctor told me that, I freaked out. How I am going to take those medicines forever? Arthritis is something that will stay in your system for long as you live, and the medicines help control it. This is my life, and I know that god gave me this condition for something. I just wish I knew why...